20060927-Stand By

I wanted to go to sleep after being in front of the computer the whole evening; so I decided to log back online and post this blog. This was after hearing my complimentary fly-by overhead by a copter the moment I got of the computer around 11:15PM.

I suppose you all are wondering what is my next move. I cannot provide further instructions to anyone at this point until I access the current sit-coms. The current situation for me happens to be work related at this company and I was not a cheerful the whole day as I ranted to my co-worker via chatting.

I already told him about leaving this damn company sometime this year. And everything seems to be falling into place - new bosses fast becoming more like ‘big brothers’ bullying about timecards and old bosses pestering about my work being slower recently. The auditors will never go away as they continue to visit me every quarter.

I realize how stupid I am for being a diligent and honest hardworker compared to the lazy and uncommitted whiners, who are currently temporary. I don’t blame them for not working harder as temps without the security of a permanent noose around their necks like rest of us permanent workers, who have signed away our freedom as part of the hiring process.

As a result, I’ve slowed my work down tremendously and take more breaks like the temp, ’Feign Hurt.’ She has taught me to talk to strangers openly about very personal matters; walk aimlessly around the six of the twelve floors; stare at the passing clouds out the windows and call in sick more often than necessary. I have yet to learn how to effectively interrupt; ask stupid questions and ultimately irate co-workers, who are already talking among themselves.

I wished I could play more indoor football like the sales department. But I’m stuck doing my work and keeping busy and out of any form of communications. I still won’t answer my work phone and have started cleaning up my area when I decide to quit that place. I’m tired of typing and sitting all day in front of the computer, too.

I cannot stand by people who have different work ethics and I cannot provide administrative support forever. I cannot stand by while everyone else is horse playing for doing nothing related to work. I cannot stand by and know that there is injustice done elsewhere beyond the confines of the prison-like cubicle.

What are these recent speculative stories via the media about partial disclosures of classified ‘documents?’ How does anyone, once again, suddenly come up with these sensational materials? Why not admit the vast numbers of people are awakening to the truth as the scariest story yet?

Have enough people ’stood by their guns’ for once and tried to at least discover for themselves that not all predators are bad but are now the victims; the alleged good people doing work from ‘upstairs’ are now ‘bad;’ or the meek are now fighting back?

Please stand by what is basically the truth - love conquers all. If money is instead the motive, money will conquer all. If war is instead the motive, war will conquer all. Let us each be our own agent in our earthly environment and choose life as our ultimate fate.

P.S. To solve your burning question of ‘What’s next?’ you may choose death as an alternative solution. Either way is the same. Death, in this sense, means starting all over and that could take eons. You all know should know that by now! Good night for now…

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